CSR Maude: Beginnings (21) Warming Up

The next few weeks were like a slow thaw. Nothing abruptly changed, except we did have a few days that were really amazing. Well, the sun felt nice and warm, and the air was not absolutely freezing. I actually dragged a chair from the house and sat in the sun in the back yard (away…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (20) Trying to Find Warm

The next month, february, was just plain cold... well, freezing... The locals said this winter was about normal. Even the snow-storms that blew through, that was normal, too. Well, I don't like cold anyway, but snow... I didn't like that stuff at all. But windy cold weather did make me so thankful for this thick…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (19) Month of Sundays

Well, I heard someone use this phrase. It was hard to know what they meant, and I forgot to ask, or I was busy... I had to guess. It is just... That first january crept along so slowly... And I knew that I spent so much effort just trying to stay warm, well maybe even…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (18) Settling In, Again…

Starting a new work week after over a week of no Diner... I felt like I was starting all over, and had to settle in... again... And, a new year even... As I pulled my new twine tight that morning, I found myself wanting to laugh at the thought that "maybe it would change this…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (17) Bittersweet

Saturday morning I woke up late. I had spent the entire day yesterday working on my journal. That was a lot. And most of that dealt with a difficult time for me. Well, here and now, I would start back into work at the Diner in two days. I really did hope it would get…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (16) Capturing Devastating Loss

I woke up that next morning, friday morning, already crying. I knew what I had to do. As I worked through writing about Edna dying, I realized that, at that point, I just didn't have the ability to sense... I should have seen her death coming a lot better. But I just wasn't that far…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (15) Catching Up

Well, that night, I had a nightmare about salesmorons. In that dream I was cleaning tables at the Diner. When I finished one table, I stood up and turned around. A salesmoron was standing right there, and would try something... I would push him away, slap him, yell at him or something, then clean another…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (14) Something to Do

I think I woke up at the normal time. Sunlight was flooding my living room where I slept on the couch. I realized that my nice coat was still on from yesterday. The fuzz around the neck is what woke me up; it itched madly. It looked nice, and kept me warm on the way…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (12) Thing called Christmas, part 1

I walked home, slowly, crying... Once inside, I took a very quick, very cold shower, crying... I got clean work clothes on, crying, even though it would be over a week before I went back to the Diner... With no cook and no customers, there would be nobody there... Nobody there... That is exactly how…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (11) Just Another Week

Third week without Edna... Holding so much at arms length... Well, life had to go on. I kept telling myself that. Last week, four salesmorons tried twice to gang-rape me (Delores' words). That was so scary. I... even one of them would be really hard for me to stop. But four... Like I wrote last…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (10) Settling In

I know I repeated the title. This is the second time I had to do this. It doesn't matter because nobody else will ever read this anyway. I like the title. I actually was early the following monday morning. This was the start of my second week running the Diner solo, after Edna died. I…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (9) Starting Over

I have few recollections about those first days I was alone in Edna's house, now my house. I mean those few days after the funeral and before I... started the Diner up... all by myself... I had already closed the door to Edna's room after she died, and I closed the other doors soon after.…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (8) Her Time

Edna was so excited! It was a monday, and she said the Diner would only be open the next 4 days, then would be closed for 4 whole days, for what she called thanksgiving. Edna was so looking forward to that time, just to stay at home and relax. I could see that she was…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (7) First Fall

The coolness of, well, not sweltering summer, it did finally begin to slowly blow across the desert. It wasn't quite as stinking hot during the afternoons, the fans were not as necessary, the shades made a little less difference... It ever so slowly began to cool down. We would enjoy a few cooler days, then…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (6) Settling In

During the heat of summer, I think we both just... Well, the heat fries your brain, and you have little left for much else. That's how I felt, anyway. Still, I was at least aware that me working so hard like that was giving Edna precious time with the locals. I saw that a lot,…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (5) Salesmorons

Edna told me often, from as far back as I could remember, that I was a 'pretty little thing'. I doubted it, and so it didn't really stick. Still, Edna warned me repeatedly about the piranha that visited the Diner that would surely be trying to get "a piece of me" is how she put…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (4) The Diner

It seems like the Diner was my first real exposure, my first real life, that I can remember, anyway. Well, wait... That's all I remember now too. But Edna had nursed me back to reality, and then she wanted me with her at the Diner during the day. I am positive that she just wanted…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (3) Dawn of Time

I know that title sounds funny. It is just that... Well, Edna said she found me in the middle of her back porch bright and early one morning. This was early last summer, she said. And this was a few years after Ed had died. When she found me there, she... She said I didn't…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (1)

Hunt and peck, where iz that m key. It iz really a miracle that thiz old computer even workz. And I don't even know what 'xt' ztandz for. Ed bought it to keep recordz for the farm, well a long time ago, I guezz. Everything goez on theze little black zquare thingz. It lookz like…

New Story, “CSR Maude”

This post announces the beginning of a new story, simply entitled "CSR Maude."  When it becomes necessary, I will probably add a sticky post with any other posting process notes.  This particular post is more of a place holder to mark the start of this story. Wow, a new story is in the works.  Let the…

CSR Princess, Follow-up.

Did you enjoy CSR Princess as much as I still do?  And I would hope that you went back and read it all through from the beginning, to get the full effect!  Well, if you liked it, tell a friend! -- Shysage

CSR Princess, Chapter 30, Magic Teacher

Hi, this is princess' magic teacher. She asked me to put together a chapter to end her story, sort of an overview of our time together, but from my perspective. I really enjoy writing assignments like this! I don't think she knew that though. She will now. It was clear when I first met her,…

CSR Princess, Chapter 29, Road Trip (2)

We woke up the next morning, also early. I did better since we had basically gone to sleep at sundown. I rolled pretty easily out from under prince's legs, and was quickly kissing him. I think I was more awake, and we were quickly on our way, skirting prince's big city as we continued our…

CSR Princess, Chapter 28, Road Trip (1)

During the warmth of the summer, prince once suggested a trip back to visit our moms and dads. Of course we would go together! He was just sure his parents would absolutely love me. I knew my mom and dad would feel the same way about my prince. But prince suggested this in the middle…

CSR Princess, Chapter 27, Newlyweds

Summer and Shyage were gone... forever... And everyhorse cried a lot, but then... they left, and went back to their lives... I don't know about prince, but I just wanted to scream, to cry out... Everyhorse kept saying... Why didn't anyhorse even... But prince was right. There was a lot more we really wanted to…

CSR Princess, Chapter 26, Absolute Evil

Well, ok, I think me having a foal, well us having a foal, that was a foregone conclusion now. And every time I mentioned that to prince, he got that cute, huge grin on his face. It was clear he was looking forward expectantly to that. "Another little princess" he would often say. I also…

CSR Princess, Chapter 25, Finally…

For many days, we mourned for our friends Summer and Shysage. Well, we mourned for all our friends, really. But I think that, as the days passed, both prince and I began to realize that maybe only time could heal those wounds. It didn't seem like that was happening, at all, as far as we…