CSR Maude: Revelations (50) Little Change

For the next week maybe, middle of one week to the middle of the next, little changed; even that nice, quiet tune behind everything else stayed put(2)! This is not to say that everything was boring and dull. I don't think that will ever be possible, with Bill always nearby. He and I had been…

CSR Maude: Revelations (48) Trying to Help

Last night, my man had given me one amazing shower! Well, we did shower, then he made me feel so on fire inside, then so amazingly took care of his woman... Shower time had really scared Bill and I, a week ago maybe, wow! Time in the shower is an amazing opportunity now, and Bill...…

CSR Maude: Revelations (47) Back to Work

Waking up crying softly... I used to wake up crying softly a lot. Sometimes it was because I had a terrible nightmare... It was usually because something terrible had really happened before; to me, at the Diner... It was... My life seemed one big hopeless, monotonous disaster... And I cried softly because my head punished…

CSR Maude: Revelations (46) Another Day of Rest

When I awoke the next morning, Bill, and I, we were both still in the same positions from when we fell asleep last night. We were both on our sides, heads up on the same pillow, and Bill had tucked me as close to him as possible. And we never made it into bed time…

CSR Maude: Revelations (45) Edge of Never

Ok, so Bill and I were married yesterday, and early this morning, we had enjoyed the 's' word... Wait... No, we simply reveled in giving everything we could to each other! That was so amazing... Oh, my goodness! And I have said a few times that I have so come to treasure that amazing tune…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (44) Sigh…

It did make me cry to realize what a change in me less than a month had made... And that was all because of my Bill... I was slaving away as a hurting zombie eyed food service worker, just trying to survive (barely) through another bruizer day (however that word is spelled), all the while…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (43) Giving Everything

Like I said, the first thing we did as husband and wife: we cried together on Edna's swing (on the front porch) until very late. We were still in our wedding clothes! I fell asleep on my man, sitting in his lap; he was hugging me tight, and being close to him was so relaxing,…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (42) Tying the Knot

My amazing Bill had even given a piece of twine to Delores! Of course, my head started hurting as soon as they drove me off in her mini-van. I had honestly forgot about this detail, but my Bill had already taken care of that for me. It did hurt, just not real bad since my long…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (41) A Day like Any Other

Waking up, starting the day with my man's head on my chest... Well, except I realized he was crying softly. "Bill, what's wrong..." I asked as lovingly as I could. Bill moved his head up against mine, and I could feel the tears on his face. Slowly, he said "Maude, I just love you so…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (40) Day by Day

Maybe for the first time in a few nights anyway, I slept very well. Having Bill near, not worried about getting on fire inside... My man had everything, and I mean everything under control. My beloved Bill would take care of everything, anything, he would take care of me. I woke up, rolled over on…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (39) Finding a Happy Medium

Well, last night was just scary. After we were married, it would be a dream come true, and we would just revel in the feelings we lovingly created in each other. But, trying to wait, trying to avoid having the 's' word until we should... And I honestly have no idea why the spectre of…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (38) Bill’s Woman

Having a man, your man, who will put you first, who will do anything possible to protect you, to care for you... Well, last night, early this morning, I realized I had that very thing. I was Bill's woman... And it wasn't like he owned me, or anything like that. It was the exact opposite!…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (37) How in the World…

Bill called his white shorts boxers, the name on the label inside. And there is a flap in the front so men could use the restroom standing up with them on. That was one of the reasons I didn't like cleaning the men's room; that makes such a mess... Bill never does that. Well, he…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (35) Day of Rest

Last night was amazing... I finally got to wear something besides my work clothes next to my man for the night. I traded jeans and a dark blue t-shirt for one of Bill's white t-shirts and some beautiful, ladylike shorts. I think we both enjoyed that -- a little glimpse for him maybe. Well, maybe…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (34) Present

Saturday morning... One more day until we could just relax together a whole day. And, waking up next to my man... Right away, Bill had me curl up next to him again, and lay on his chest. Well, he asked first how that sounded. I didn't even wait. While I lay there, trying not to…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (33) Almost Missed…

Friday morning... We both woke up together, and Bill said he slept well, and I did too. But the first thing, Bill rolled over on his back again, and I rested my head on his chest for a little while longer. "Thank you, Bill. Starting my day like this means a lot..." We were both…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (32) Bill’s Turn

I woke the next morning. I was not laying on my side next to Bill. I guess he had moved my head onto one of my pillows last night. How I slept through that... I really must have been tired. Waiting before I got too dismayed, I realized that Bill's arm was around my waist.…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (31) Deepening Dependence

We were both a mess that morning, crying, hugging, crying some more... Well, Bill had asked me to marry him the night before. I... There is nothing in the universe I wanted more! And just a week ago, I didn't even know that... Well, I looked at the clock... We weren't late, but we needed…

CSR Maude, Post Notes

How old should you be to continue reading this story?  I don't know, maybe 17?  Still, I know I can't even enforce this.  It is just that the growth of the intimacy of devotion between Bill and Maude is an important aspect of this story. Adding the mature category seems unavoidable as a result. Still,…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (30) Having Bill Around

I slept well, and woke with the sun. Then I smiled. My hair tumbled playfully as I sat up on Ed and Edna's bed, and my head didn't hurt at all. That meant Bill was close. That is why I smiled. I deeply wanted that, Bill close. And I reminded myself that, now, this was…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (29) Slow

Well, after an amazing sunday, it was late afternoon, and I mentioned to Bill that I did have chores to do to get ready for work tomorrow. He said he still had stuff to do too, so I walked back to the farmhouse and inside. Well, I actually walked very slowly, and looked carefully where…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (28) Peace

The sun woke me up the next morning, like it usually does. I was about to jump up off the couch, and rush to get ready to walk to the Diner. Trying to remember if I had any clean clothes (dark blue t-shirt and jeans of course, my work clothes), I looked at the clock,…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (27) Just Another Customer

Well, we were absolutely swamped... And it was stinking hot... It was all I could do to keep the windows (and even doors) open, the fans pointed the right way, the blinds adjusted, and keep everyone fed with the right meals. It was a weekend later in may (Saturday I think), and people came and…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (26) Not Again…

Maybe the salesmorons hybernated during the winter, too. I don't remember having much problems with them during that time. That was probably good though. I didn't need that on top of everything else. I mean, four of them had tried to gang-rape me last fall. That really shook me up. But, after a while, I…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (25) Just Bazaar

Well, it was definitely warming up. Maybe hot is a better word. Maybe really hot. I absolutely had to carefully watch opening windows and playing with the fans. The shades needed constant attention too. This day wasn't the first time I had to do that since early last fall, but it was very hot... I…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (24) True Zombie

Well, at least it wasn't freezing cold. I had to wonder if, during the winter, maybe I had hybernated or something. Most of those really cold months, well it was right after Edna had died. I had to start the Diner up again, solo, all the while bleeding inside myself. It was just excruciating. So,…

CSR Maude: Meanderings (23) April’s Fool

Well, it was a monday, and I was walking slowly to work, to the Diner. I wore Edna's old sweatshirt, but half way there, I took it off and tied it around my waist. People said it was spring, the season. Maybe late spring, it was warming up. I was so grateful for that, at…

CSR Maude: Beginnings (22) Sigh…

Needy... Why is it that, for as long as I remember, I have to be so needy, so vulnerable? I can only remember less that a year ago, but still... My first words to Edna after she found me on her back porch... I was a scared little girl, afraid of just about everything. And…